To say I had a difficult pregnancy is an understatement. After suffering a miscarriage with my first pregnancy, I found myself pregnant with twins on our second try.

It hasn’t been easy writing this, because I’ve wanted to be sure that I make clear how loving and wonderful my husband is, while also disclosing the extent to which he struggled as a new dad.

When I was pregnant with my first child, I had no idea what his birth would be like; and so, like a good girl, I did my research.

Before there were apps to track your baby’s feeding, nursing, and sleep sessions – there were good, old fashioned notebooks.